Unexpected things in life..

Yesterday I spent all day studying "Appreciation of Art" because even though it's not a difficult subject I had to learn all the clasifications of the plastic elements which can be found in an artistic creation (Painting, drawing, sculpture..) and that's not easy at all, I told my dad I wouldn't go to my tennis class because I needed to study and he said it was ok and that he would take it instead of me because he needed to improve some of techniques and wnated my teacher to help him.

I carried on studying and then my mum arrived, my dad and her were watching the telly and since my bedroom is next door after their bedroom I heard them talking and suddenly my dad told her that the scar of the last surgery he had like 4 months ago was opened and that he was feeling the same way he felt before the surgery so it also means that he could have the same problem again. Of course they didn't realize that I was listening to their talk but what I heard was awful because my parents won't tell us about this just like it happened 3 years ago when my dad got really sick and was about to die (My sister and I didn't know anything about it, we were staying with an aunt because my mum didn't want us to know it) and liek it happened 4 months ago, they decided to tell us about the surgery like 1 week before it happened. After a few minutes of hearing this I started to reflect about the situation and I couldn't help crying because as I told my school psychologist 4 moths ago we're not kidas anymore and my parents should know that they can tell us that kinda stuff especially because we are a family.

Then after that happened I started to think about some of my friends who have been stealing the final exams which we're presenting now and well since one of them proposed me to solve Maths one I decided to tell him I wouldn't do it because it wasn't correct nor honest. Maybe for some people this would be as easy as deciding wether to wear a cap or not but this little thing was in my mind like for 2 hours and in the end I felt happy because I had decided not to do it but to my surprise at 10:00 pm when I was just about to finish studying this guy called me and asked me if I had studied already and I said yes , he gave the phone to another "friend" who told me "Oh ok so you can solve the exam, we're about to visit you" but since he lives a bit far from me I thought they were just joking and carried on studying the last page of my notebook, 20 minutes later my mobile rang again, they were calling me again and they told me they were about to get to my home! I didn't believe them but suddenly one of them said "I'm gonna turn on the car lights" and when I looked through the window I saw them so I went out, they asked me to help them to answer the exam and well I said "Yes" becase I had no other choice I mean I couldn't lie by telling them I was not at home or that I had not studied because they already knew it so I went into their car (My parents were already sleeping so they didn't enter to my house) and we started to solve the exam and I relaized I had been studying all day for nothing because there were a lot of questions which the teacher didn't tell us to study and which I didn't study of course and the exam only had questions from the latest notes, I didn't have to study the frist ones (Which were the most difficult ones). When we finished they went away and I reviewed the things that I didn't study and which were part of the exam, I felt a bit guilty and when I told my sister ehs told me I was a jerk and that made me feel even more guilty, this morning I told my parents and they were ok with that at least they didn't get mad and when I arrived to school and presented the exam it was really easy but most of my friends were mad becasue there were a lot of questions which they couldn't answer because the teacher didn't tell us she would include them (Something that would have happened to me if I hadn't seen the exam last night). A friend of mine told me that he was told that some guys were selling the exams (I suppose the responsibles are the guys who visited me last nighht) and I felt a bit scared but now that I have thought about it I really shouldn't worry because it wasn't my intention and of course I didn't steal a single exam.

This made me think about all the decisions that we have to take in life; you can easily steal an exam and get a good grade but what happens if the principal discovers you? and also what could have happened if I had decided to follow my instincts when I heard about my dad's scar, I could be in the hospital now because I felt so dissapointed about my parents hiding it that I thought my life wasn't worth enough but of course I clamed down and nothing happened. I really learnt to control my automatic instincts.