No more exams!!

(The only nice pic that I was able to fing on my brother's laptop :P)

Today my exams finished and that makes me feel really happy because that means I'll be able to continue with my normal web life :P I would love to post more about my life right now but I'm going to the movies with a mate so I have to change clothes (I'm wearong my uniform :P) and get ready but expect regular updates from now on..

What made my day nice today..

It's 12:19 a.m. over here so I'm really tired especially because I studied Mexican constitution and Mexican laws from 11:00 am to 10:00 p.m. (taking some small breaks of course) and well tomorrow I'll just review everything I studied today however my day wasn't that bad because:

* I was able to download a version of "Xanadu" recorded by a British band called POP! (who only released 3 singles) and that's amazing because that song did pretty well on the dance charts even though it was never released because they went their separate ways, to make things even better I also found all their b-sides and remixes but I'm going to download them tomorrow as soon as I get up because megaupload only works for me before 9:00 a.m.

POP! members; Glenn (left) and Jaime (right) are HOT

* I finished studying for Monday's exam today so I won't have to spend a lot of time reviewing my notes tomorrow and that's nice because tomorrow my grandmother an uncle and some cousins will come to visit us so I wouldn't be able to concentrate if I had to study. * I realized how happy I am being the way I am instead of acting like my brother who only wants to hang around with his popular mates because he can only feel happy doing that which means he is the kind of guy who loves to fit in by doing what the others do, I'm not perfect but I know it's better to be the way I am; even my parents have said that his attitude isn't the best on.

Young Charles and his brother trying to look tough (just like Men In Back guys), this pic was taken in 2003 when I used to have a "normal" realtion with my brother.

Something Kinda Ooooh... being number one!

Here's a list of the things that made me feel happy today:

* The fact that Girls Aloud new single "Something Kinda Ooooh" is the most downloaded song on iTunes right now (I've just checked it).

* Even though I will have three exams tomorrow I was able to finish studying for them around 9:30 p.m. which is great because I have time to check some webs right now + it usually takes me until midnight to finish studying when I'm on my exams period.

* Today I went to an art museum with my classmates because we had to do an activity for our Appreciation of Art class; however after visiting the museum my mates decided that we should have a quick stop at Starbucks coffee and while we were there this guy who I fell in love with about more than a year ago and who made me realize how gay I am by joking with me in a homo way (something I really liked) wanted to buy me a muffin just because I was eating nothing but I replied "no" the three times he asked me that mainly because I wasn't hungry but also because I still feel kinda gutted about how he made me feel when he started to be rude with me (after our friendship ended) and even though now he tries to be nice with me some wounds never seem to heal.

I'll remain with a positive mentality..

Today wasn't a good day at all because once again my internet connection didn't work properly so my web life disappeared in the blink of an eye; fortunately right now I'm able to use my old internet connection (which hasn't been cancelled) and I was able to e-mail important people in my life + I'm being able to update my blog right now.

As I mentioned it previously my exams are almost here so I will have to "survive" for the next days without talking to my online mates but I hope my lack of real friends over here and my dedication help me to get good grades which is something important for my future.

Besides my web problems my day wasn't that bad because of the following things:

* A guy who used to be one of my best mates over here (and whose seat is located beside me in our class-room) has changed a lot since we stopped talking that much and of course that changes always bring consequences and my friend is starting to discover them and since those consequences are not that good I was able to reaffirm that my mentality is correct. (I'm not saying that I'm perfect but this is helping me to realize that I'm on the right path)
* My English teacher was really nice with me and called me "partner" because sometimes I solve my mates doubts while he's busy solving another doubt, this makes me feel good because I kinda identify my personality with his and besides that it's really nice that your "effort" is recognized by someone else.
* I did a pretty nice job with my Ecology homework; I mean I'm satisfied with my job because I really took the time it requires to be made and the final result in terms of content and presentation is good.

(I posted that Picasso painting called "Old guitarist" because one of my mates, Raúl, told me once that I resemble that old man and well he might be right because even though he doesn't know how do I feel about my life he always amazes me because he knows me really well and I never thought he could get know me that much)

What a day!!

Today was a really nice day for me because even though it seemed to be an average one everything changed as soon as I was able to sign in to msn (the standard version because my pc doesn't allow me to use msn live nor to post messages or send PM's on any forum); here's a small list about the things that made my day a better one:

* I was able to talk wit Ben on msn for the first time and as I told him before he signed out I was spechless after talkign with him because I love and identify myself with his personality, he's an amazing guy not forgetting he's as sweet as honey :)
* I also talked with Robbie (after a long time) and he made me feel happy because he's always nice and he always know how to make me grow up in this world, just like any good teacher would do it, right Rob? + He posted something really nice for me on his blog which is amazing.
* My two best mates in this world (Robbie and Ben, just in case you were doubting it) made me realize that it doesn't really matter that you're different in this world because we're all special and we can always find a way of getting to know people who really accept us especially if our "friends" are not that nice to us.

My exams are getting closer as days go by so I might not upload this blog that much because I'll have to study hard but expect more updates as soon as my exams are over.

Last but not least I would like to say a massive "Thank-you" to Robbie and Ben for putting a smile on my face and teaching me what I really need to learn in this life, both of you are really special for me and I'm sure that I won't ever change my mind bout this.


The world is a better place because of people like you!!

Will this ever end?

I know life is not easy, everybody goes through rough times but it's not nice knowing that you can't be yourself with your mates/family because they won't ever understand that being different is not a sin especially when it comes to homosexuality. Today when I woke up I was feeling sad about this (I should feel happy because I received a Girls Aloud DVD as well as a Steps album yesterday but I'm just not in the mood for them right now) and as the hours have passed I've been feeling even more sad because I'm almost all alone, I've been feeling like crying all day but I just can't do it because I would feel awkward and somebody could notice it. This feeling is not nice because even though I have not thought about suicide sometimes I just think it would be better if I wasn't alive because my life is not nice and I can't get used to that but I suppose that future might change things; especially when I move but until then it won't be easy to get over this "issue". I decided to post that Daniel Powter pic because it means a lot to me and it represents the way I am feeling right now, the colours are just perfect as well as his position, his self-titled album is brilliant and his lyrics are like a soundtrack of a rough period I lived.

Charles Van Gogh..

I think my Appreciation of Art class is the best art course I've ever had. I love all the projects that our teacher asks us to do or create. This time she told us that we should find a nice painting or image so that we could draw it as a sketch and then "colour" it only with coloured pencil points, it was a really tough, stressing and hard to do and as usually not all my mates did it correctly because they are lazy; anyway I did it the correct way and it took me about 3 days to finish it but in the end I feel happy because my effort looks really nice. The painting I chose is a Van Gogh one which has loads of colours (We had to create the secondary colours using only the primary ones which are red, yellow and blue). Here it is a pic of my drawing; it's not the whole drawing because the sheet didn't fit my scanner.

I did it !!

Yesterday our French principal (Monsieur Raymond) interrupted the French class because he wanted to give us the results of an exam we presented called DELF (Diplôme d' Etudes en Langue Française). This exam can be presented by non-french people so that they can have an international validation of their French level; there are 6 levels but the most important or essential ones are the first 4 ones. I've presented 3 exams until now, next year I'll present the 4th one. However I feel really proud and happy about this because I got the third highest grade among all my mates who presented it. These exams are just like Cambridge FCE (Which I presented almost 3 years ago) and CAE (Which I'll present next year) in terms of English.


(This is not the official logo, it has nothing to do with the exam indeed but I found this image on Google and it's cool so I decided to post it)

Oh what a night!!

Everything started a few years ago when Atomic Kitten released Ladies Night, I am a huge fan and well I downloaded the video as soon as it leaked since I wasn't able to see it on the telly channels because they didn't do any promotion over here. I was really excited because I love the song and when I started to watch the video I really liked it but suddenly the scenes of the strippers appeared and I was really excited and kinda shocked at the same time because I had always known that I am gay but at that time I didn't accept it and it was the first time that I saw a fit men dancing like that, I continued watching the video and the scene in which 3 men wear pink underwear appeared. I was really amazed (as any gay guy would be) but I was also scared because of how much I was loving the video as well as the male dancers so I decided that I should delete the video because I didn't want to accept I am gay + I felt scared that my brother/sister could see it. After a few years I accepted my homosexuality and now I love it so I decided to download the video once again since I am more mature now and I love being the way I am but it was kinda difficult because I didn't find it anywhere but yesterday I was able to download it and I've seen it a couple of times and I really like it; I realize it was really stupid to deny something that is part of my personality but at least now I'm mature enough to to realize that I should live my life the way I am. (I wasn't able to find pics about the dancers or the strippers but I found some promo pics for the single)