Will this ever end?

I know life is not easy, everybody goes through rough times but it's not nice knowing that you can't be yourself with your mates/family because they won't ever understand that being different is not a sin especially when it comes to homosexuality. Today when I woke up I was feeling sad about this (I should feel happy because I received a Girls Aloud DVD as well as a Steps album yesterday but I'm just not in the mood for them right now) and as the hours have passed I've been feeling even more sad because I'm almost all alone, I've been feeling like crying all day but I just can't do it because I would feel awkward and somebody could notice it. This feeling is not nice because even though I have not thought about suicide sometimes I just think it would be better if I wasn't alive because my life is not nice and I can't get used to that but I suppose that future might change things; especially when I move but until then it won't be easy to get over this "issue". I decided to post that Daniel Powter pic because it means a lot to me and it represents the way I am feeling right now, the colours are just perfect as well as his position, his self-titled album is brilliant and his lyrics are like a soundtrack of a rough period I lived.