Changing the routine

Every thursday me and 2 of my mates suffer, literally, 'cos of this 3 hours class we have. The thing is that even though it's not the most difficult class in the world te teacher, who's got a really nrrow-minded mentality in all aspects, seems to love to see us suffering :P especially when she checks our projects bt anyway yestrday after I was done with her homework I was feeling a bit unsure about it 'cos I didn't know if it was ok so I was affraid of failing but as I was taking a shower I realised I shouldn't feel scared 'cos I knew I had done my best even though it took me more hours to finish than it took to my mates, so toda when the Architect checked my mates' projects she made them change their whole projects and when m turn came she didn't correct anything about mine.

I must admit it felt very good, of couse not 'cos I did well and my mates didn't, I just thught about me and I was feeling happy 'cos norally I tend to be the one that takes more time in doing things whithout gtting better results and this time it wasn't like that so I felt very happy.

After our class one of my friends asked me to go to the movies, he's the one I've known for all my life, so I said yes even though I wasn't THAT excited abut going but I ust thought it'd be nice 'cos we really didn't have to work on our home work and I was feeling happy. We saw "Jumper" and to be honest I expected it to be a crappy movie but to my surprise I really enjoyed even though I'm not into that kinda movies, it's an interesting story and the special effects are good lol I liked it so much that when we went out of the cinema I told him "I'd so love to be like him" haha I know it's a bit odd but I really felt like that and it's the first time tat it happens to me with a movie so I was really happy. When we were on our way to my home we decided to buy some coffe and donuts 'cos we were feeling a bit hungry and well as we were eating our donuts we just started to talk about how nice it is to brear our routines, we also talked about living on our own and visitng our families every weekend and since he's going to NY in a few monts we also talked about the excitement of traveling alone well he's going with 2 friends but they're gonna travel on their own) so I also mentionedhow happy I was when I went to Chicago on my own... Im not gonna makethis post longer, I just wanna emphasize how great it was for me to live thisday like this because it made me realize how proud I m of myself and also howhappy I feel about my current situation even if it's not the best one or a correct one... I prefer to be valuable than pretending o hvea "happy/perfect" life like most people.

Heres a recent pic of me (taken last Thursday), my friend (Poncho) is the one that next to me.

Upside Down..

First of all I wanna say sorry for this belated post but it's just that well even though one week ago I was the happiest guy on earth because I saw the Spice Girls live in Chicago and I met Victoria Beckham last Thursday my dad's mum died so we've been really down and well that kept me busy because we had to go to her burrial and all that stuff. I must admit it has been shocking for me 'cos it the first time that I lose a family member since I turned into a mature guy so yeah I have been feeling sad and of course I couldn't help crying for her, I can tell you it's a nice feeling knowing that you have a strong family and well of course knowing that even though my grand mother is dead now she left loads of things in me like her advices and comments that were always correct, it's a nice feeling for me and to be honest this kinda changed my life because it has made me realise that well all of us will die one day so it's not good to live my life that stressed or sad because well I'm just 19 years old and she was 92... I still have plenty of time to experience and discover different things, I'm not saying I'm going to turn into a wild guy... no, I'm just gonna strart to change some aspects of my life that could help me to be more happy and enthusiastic about life.

My brother phoned me the next morning afer my grand mother died (Friday) and even though I was sleeping I cried and felt a bit guilty because while she was dying I was partying with my friends.. I had no news about her so I wasn't worried, in fact I was really happy 'cos I was hanging out with my gay friend and my "normal" friends so I had a really nice time lol I really wanted to kiss him again but of course I couldn't do it 'cos the rest of my friends were there however we did have a nice time just for the two of us and w whispered to eachother's ears 'cos the music volume was too loud, sometimes I really think I would liek to have a relationship with him but I don't take it too seriously 'cos he hasn't shown interest in a relationship.. maybe it's too soon.. mabe it wn't happen? wo knows!

Here's a picture of us, my gay friend is the second one from right to left, lol you can see I had beard but it's only 'cos it was a busy week at school so I thought it'd be better to avoid shaving while I took a shower so that I could sleep more haha.