Holidays are almost here :D

I haven't been able to post lately because I have been busy with all my school projects (which replace most of exams) and today I finally have some spare time to post here because the only exam that I needed to present before going on holidays (Statistics) was today; holidays won't start until Dec 2oth and I still have to handle in some projects as well dancing for my English class ("I Wish It Could Be Christmas Everyday" by Girls Aloud, chosen by the only guy who knows them..me :D) and singing for my French class ("Les Trois Grand Rois" :P) but those activities are not that difficult so I'm not stressed anymore and to make things even better tomorrow I won't have classes because we're going to have a new president (Felipe Calderón) who will replace the current one (Vicente Fox) after his 6 years term.

Could this be good?

Yesteday while I was online I had my mobile beside me as it usually happens and well to my surprise I received a text message from a gay friend who lives in Mexico city (30 min of my city) and it said something cute like "Hey little boy hope you have a great week-end, I hope to see you soon, kisses" . I was really happy because it's the first time that I have that kinda "contact" with a gay friend, he has a boyfriend who also lives near and the 3 of us have agreed on meeting next year when I start Uni in Mexico city (I really hope I can pass the exam next Feb.) they're huge Spice fans which is nice because not a lot of guys are still fans over here. They're really nice friends and I can't wait to meet them.
On the other hand I also met another gay guy who lives in my city via Gaydar and well we talked on MSN for a couple of min. before I had lunch; we exchanged our mobile numbers as well and during the evening/night he tried to call me 3 times and he left two voice messages (Which I wasn't able to listen); I didn't answer whenever he was trying to call me because I was a bit scared not only because it would be the first time that I talk with a gay guy because besides that I don't know him and I'm not sure about his intentions I mean I don't have pics on my Gaydar profile and he has loads of naked pics of himself which makes me think he only wants to "use" me anyway I'm not sure about this so I'll talk with him next time he's online and I'll try to get to know him little by little, he's more than 20 (I don't know his exact age) I think that age difference is not an obstacle but well I'm not sure about his personality so I'll be really careful. I was really shocked when he tried to call me because since me and my sister were helping my parents to decorate our house with x-mas stuff I felt that 2 opposite parts of my world were crashing, the kid part which made me think about believing in Santa Claus and reminded me about all the times I've decorated our house with x-mas stuff in the past with my family and the grown-up gay part which is happening right now.

Lovely Will Young (Dressed in a nice winter outfit outside the studio where he reorded Band Aid 20 single with other artists in 2004) telling me to stop and be careful about meeting gay guys over here 'cos things are not always pink and mean people can cheat on me.

X-mas is almost here!

Today my dad woke me up because he wanted us to have a tennis match but I said "No" because the weather is really cold over here; I don't even want to type but I always have things to do while I'm online so I can't do that. According to my parents this winter is even colder than last year's winter and at a certain point I like it because I really like x-mas weather but it would be nice if it could start a bit later; not since November!

Tomorrow I have tennis lessons again and I just hope that the weather changes because otherwise my legs will freeze :P

However x-mas is a nice time of the year and I love it, my b-day is getting closer (Dec. 31st) and I can't wait.

Tennis classes !

Today I'm feeling really tired and my body is hurting a bit because I started my tennis classes started and well since I'm not used to do exercise it was a bit tiring but after all I think it's ok because I really felt relaxed while I was playing not forgetting that it also helps me to improve my physical condition.

I'm not a tennis fan or something like that but I decided to take classes because my school psychologist suggested that I should practice a sport in order to eliminate the stress I feel because of my sexuality problems and I think it's really useful especially because it frees your mind but of course it's not the solution.

YAY!!

Yesterday I was finally able to download POP! (UK band) videos and everything is thanks to one of my mates who taught me how to download videos form youtube and then convert them into any format which is amazing because it not only means that I'll able to transfer them to my iPod because if I convert them into .mpg files I'll also be able to burn them into a dvd and watch them on the telly!!

This is something amazing for me because I've been trying to download their videos since 2004 when they went their separate ways + I've also been able to download loads of videos of some European artists who don't have a lot of fan sites like BWO (Bodies Without Organs) and Alcazar!!

Such a good question..

I know being a teenager is not easy; you stop being a kid and you start to become an adult, in my opinion it's a nice stage of our lives because we start to discover our true identity and there's no other way to do that. Sometimes you feel on top of the world because you think you've climbed the highest mountain (It can be because of love, friendship, school or any kind of personal achievement) and you think you're mature enough to survive for the rest of your life but things can also be quite hard from time to time especially when you realize that your personality can be quite silly or inappropriate, this is not always bad because that's why we are all different. So all we have to do is learn how to behave during certain situations so that we don't freak out because of an unexpected results and that's what being a teenager is all about. Some people might learn this faster and it's not bad because it depends on our past I mean we all go through different experiences as kid and those are the one which make this "process" faster.

I don't want to sound like a psychologist or a dad but it's just that sometimes it's kinda hard for me to remember that, I consider myself as a mature person -I don't need to smoke loads of cigarettes or get drunk until I throw up just like most of my mates did yesterday at a party- and well sometimes I think "Why can't I think like them so that I can drunk like they do?" and well the answer might be quite obvious because they don't have all the "problems" that I have (In terms of sexuality for example) and if they have problems they try to escape from them by getting drunk which isn't the correct option.

(As posted before on my blog, this picture of my 5 year old birth-day party. I'm dressed up as Aladdin because he was my fave Disney character, I posted it because when was that age I didn't need to worry about ANYTHING but of course I didn't know how special can life be even if you're not able to live it the way you want to live it)

Loving each day as if it's the last ?!?!

Despite the sadness I've felt during the last days something I've learnt is that even if my life is not normal or happy I should always try to go on by swimming against all of the waves and rapids because in the end I know and hope that all my hard work (Being a responsible student, dealing with social pressures and feeling alone) will bring me good results; sometimes it might seem to be really difficult but thankfully I have a few good mates which always know how to make my day brigther. This is amazing because I've learnt the meaning of true friendship and well nobody said that life would be fair but it doesn't have to be that hard. Tomorrow I'll talk with my school psychologist (The only person over here who knows I'm gay) and I hope things can get better.


(Marit Larsen; singer from Norway)

Another piece of my "art"

Last Wednesday my so acclaimed "Appreciation of Art" teacher returned me my last project which consists in 2 drawings (the same image) created with the same technique but using only one colour in its different tonalities for one of them (I decided to use blue) while all the primary colours were used to create the secondary ones in the second image. I decided to inspire myself with a Disneyland postcard which pictures Jiminy Cricket staring at a candy shop. I decided to change some details and of course I elimininated Jiminy Cricket (My teacher hates cartoons) and I think the final result is quite good:

Jordi Labanda

Today I decided to post some pics about Jordi Labanda; a designer who was born in Uruguay in 1968 and moved to Barcelona, when he was 3 years old, where he became an Industrial Illustartor and worked in some famous magazines like Vogue, Elle, Marie Claire and others.




Today he's got his own brand of products which includes school bags, wallets, purses, posh notebooks and pens and even though some people think that his art is kinda material, cheesy or superficial I love it because it is original and he always uses bright colours which is something I love. The pics I posted were found by my sister yesterday while she Googled him; the last one if my favourite because it's really interesting and to be honest I would love it even more if the girl could be replaced by a guy but anyway it's amazing the way he represents loads of my feelings in this pic I mean that red wall with loads of colourful stains makes me think about how will my sister and I will talk about my homosexuality for the first time. I now it seems to be quite bizarre or geek but it's what comes to my mind when I see that pic.

Marie Serneholt - Oxygen

Today I decided to post Marie Serneholt's latest video "Oxygen"; just in case someone doesn't know her she used to be part of the Swedish band A*Teens and has a solo career now. It is an amazing ballad which talks about feeling something so special for someone that it doesn't let you breathe but it makes you feel like you're in heaven; the video is really nice and it suits the song perfectly. The special effects are really nice as well.

Yeah.. I'm a weirdo

Today I had one of the most happy bad days in my life; it is weird but true. Everything started with my dad telling me that I should have a tennis match with him, I decided to take tennis lessons because my school psychologist suggested I should practice a sport when I confessed her I'm gay and my life isn't good at all, and well my dad knows I'm not that keen on sports but since he loves sports and being healthy he has always forced me to practice a sport and when I was younger I used to take tennis lessons but of course I don't remember how to play at all (My lessons will start on Nov 15th) so I said "No" and he continued telling me that we should do it but I didn't change my mind; a few hours later he told me that we should go to the movies because I had spent most of the day on the PC (He is against that) and he thinks that I should change my personality "blah blah.." and once again I said "No" because I feel comfortbale being who I am; I know that life isn't all about internet but well last week I was hardly online and I needed to catch up. Fortunately after a long time of waiting I was able to talk with two of my best mates (you know who you are) who really made my day shine; things were even better when one of my mates and I started to have some nice words and well besides that he really changed my mood with his advices (as usually) and well I am really happy because I know that even though no-one seems to understands me over here I am able to smile because of nice REAL mates like him. After I sigend out of MSN my dad came.. once again and invited me to watch the telly with the rest of my family and well this time I accepted but I will finish this post first.

I don't really know why is it so hard for people over here to have an open mentality; I feel like this right now especially because my father doesn't agree with my life goals and thinks I should change my perosnality (like the rest of my mates and my fmaily) but anyway talking with my mates always makes me feel better and I won't give up.

(S Club 7 "Sunshine" album cover; it's one of my favourite albums and the art work is really nice and makes me feel better because of the colours and the whole concept of it; it's all about enjoying life and having fun)