Dunno if this is good or bad..

Last night I was watching "Titanic" movie with my parents and my sister and I guess it made me realise how much I've "grown up" since the last time I watched it (3 or 4 years ago) because during some parts I really felt like crying since they were too sentimental, I think, just like the part in which Rose decides to abandon the rescue boat because she wants to find Jack and stuff like that. Maybe this doesn't show I've grown up a lot but at least I think it's a way of demonstarting myself I'm more mature and well yeah that in a certain way I have developed my feelings and I don't really know if his is good or not because I remember one of my teachers said a few moths ago that if we were sentimental we should flaunt it without being ashamed but well I'm not that sure about that because if I had decided to cry whenever I felt like crying last night my parents and sister would've thought I'm a weak guy and well that's not bad I know but in my situation it can be bad because of the society I live in.

Something I can tell you for sure is that it isn't nice to have that feeling of crying when you're not able to cry, you feel like something is pushing your chest and you can't let your tears out which isn't that easy. Last night I felt it and yeah I didn't let my tears out but during some parts of the movie my eyes would get tearful and I would just rub them as if they were itching so that no-one noticed it so I don't really know if it's good that I'm a sentimental guy or not because I always need to hide it but on the other hand I like it because I know that if someone loves you he will be there for you when you need it and he won't let you down (In case that it is your bf) which is something I find really nice.