Busy.. once again

As you might have noticed I haven't been around lately and believe me it's not that I like it, it's just that school is keeping me really busy once again. I had Psychology exam today and I studied the whole Wednesday, thankfully I did good on the exam. Now I have to do a scale model of an ecological house designed by my team (ME.. the rest are just lazy people) and it's not only designing the house and making the scale model, I also had to do a research about the constrution materials (Which are all friendly to the envirment) and explain why did I decide to use them, I had some "dad & son" time when I asked my dad, who is an Engenieer, to tell me the budget that would be required for a house like the one we're gonna build (It's only a project fopr creativity class, it's not that we're gonna build it for real but we need to pretend to be a real company and all that stuff) so that was nice, I thnk, 'cos I asked my dad for help which doesn't happen that often.

Anyway this project is not all because besides causing me a lot of stress and rude comments by my "friends" like "You're a nerd" or "You have no social life" because I started to plan it during some spare time at school I also have 2 exams next week + some homework to be done, I'm really sad and despressed right now 'cos besides all the problems I was having because of my situation now I have to deal with all this stress so everytime I go to bed I just feel as if I was on heaven.. and sometimes I really wish I could just stop living so that I could end all this pain.

Last but not least I'm really looking forward for the 2 weeks off I'll have after the following week which seems to be far away in time right now.

Sometimes I just think I should change my personality but I know it wouldn't be good 'cos I really need to work hard in school if I wanna achieve my main goal in life which is to move and also hard work is the only way of getting what you want in life but then sometiems I really doubt if I have a life :( .. after all maybe my school mates are correct.