A huge step for me...

Last night I came out to my sister, I told her 'cos I though I just needed to do it, the bf of one of my female friends who lives in Canada told me I should really tell her 'cos he knows me and he knows how much I'm suffering and well I just felt it was the time to tell her so I went to her bedroom and when I started to tell her about it she told me that she already knew about it 'cos some months ago she read it on a windown I had left openend b4 she used the PC (I suppose it was my blog but it's weird 'cos I'm relly careful about it, I always make sure the history is cleared and I always leave "normal" windows opened) , she told me it was better for her to know that way 'cos during the last months she had been thinking about it since it's too difficult for her to understand it.

She asked me to understand her and she also said her mind had changed (for good) now that I had told her, she offered me her suppport and well I told her about some of my problems and she told me she'd help me.I think that today I'm gonna tell my parents, she told me that she could be there if I wanted to clam them down but I think I have to say it on my own, I also think it's better to tell ym parents about it now because in a couple of months I'll move to Mexico city for Uni so it would be a bit weird for them if I tell them after I have moved (Well, I need to find a flat first :P) because they can get to think about it in a bad way so it's good that they know about me now that I live here so that they can see I carry on with my life even if it's difficult.

So I'm a bit nervous about telling my parents but I really wanna do it, I've been waiting for this moment for a long time now and honestly I never thought it would happen so fats but it's ok with me, I think all my depressions and bad experiences gave me the courage I need to carry on living like this and most importantly to accept me and love me the way I am.

This is a drawing I made last Friday while I was bored, I really like it and I feel proud about it 'cos I wasn't scared or ashamed of being on my own drawing it while everyone else was having fun with their "friends".