I'm a nerd :P

Yeah... I received most of the votes by my class mates so last night I got my "award" for being the most nerd guy among everyone in our grade.. I knew I was going to win that category so I wasn't surprised and I dont' really feel offended 'cos I don't really think I'm nerd, I just think I'm really responsible and well if I wanna have a bright future and achieve my goals I know I have to work hard so it's better to start working now.

Today at the school ceremony I received a ring 'cos I studied there for 16 years and I received me diplomas as well, it was a nice ceremony and while some class mates were giving their speeches I felt really emotional and felt like crying like once or twice but I controlled my feelings haha

Here are some bad quality pics taken before the ceremony, they look bad 'cos no-one really had the time to take pics so they were taken in a hurry.

High School is out completely!

Yes... it's finally over, today I presented my last exam (Creativity) at school so it means I'm done with High School !

We'll have a celebration on Thursday at a pub, on Friday a school ceremony will take place and on Saturday our graduation party and it's all, after 16 years I'll finally stop seeing the same faces. A new stage in my life is about to start and even though sometimes it's scary since it'll be a huge change I just can't wait to meet "real" life.

"Family"

During the last days I've been having some kinda troubles with my family, it all started on Saturday morning when we were getting ready for a religious ceremony of a cousin, I decided to wear a nice shirt, a pair of jeans (Not casual looking jeans) and shoes, and this was the "huge" mistake I made.. when I was fixing my hair my brother saw me and asked me "Are u going to wear jeans?" in a surprise wayand I replied "Yes" confidently. When I finished styling my hair I went to my sister's bedroom and when she saw me she asked me the same damn thing, while I was in my sister's bedroom my brother was telling my parents about this "emergency" and soonn my dad called my name in a loud tone but I didn't reply nor went to his bedroom (He wanted to tell me to change the jeans) however when I came out of my sister's bedroom my mother saw me and asked me again if I was going to wear jeans (She tried to act natural as if I didn't knew my brother had told her about it) and I got really mad and replied "Damn why is everyone asking me the same, yes I'm going to wear jeans" , after a few moments I was in my bedroom and my sister and my mum started to talk about it and I just shouted "Yes, even if youwhisper about it I'll still wear jeans" and they didn't reply.

This made me feel awful, I just wanted to burst into tears because for the first time in my life I was being rejected by my family and it wasn't a nice experience 'cos I just started to think about how obvious this was.. I'm gay, I'm not a "normal" guy and I have a determined personality.. of course they can't accept someone like me but well thankfully I was able to control my sadness/anger and didn't cry.

To make things a bit worse next day I realised how crappy the realiton between my brother and me is 'cos he wanted to see Harry Potter's latest film and well he aksed my sister to accompany him but she said no 'cos she needed to study... he knew I didn't have to study and he wasn't bothered to ask me to accompany him :( this was a bit sad too but well I just didn't let it surprise me since I have always known my borther dislikes me for loads of reasons and I have to admit that I dislike him too but at least my reasons are worth it and I have been able to verify that each time I talk wth my sister or my parents about my brother's spoilt life/attitude (My parents accept it but carry on supporting it) and I also vefiried it yesterday when I went with my grandmother and him to a shoping centre, she wanted to buy him a b-day present and while he was in the fitting rooms she told me a lot of things about him that are true (spoilt, doesn't appreciate my dad's efforts ..)

So as you can see it hasn't been a good life for me lately but I'm happy 'cos I've been able to get over this on my own and I have to admit it just feels great to realise you're on the right track.

"Super brothers".. almost 5 years ago

Today I feel..

really depressed.. and the worst thing is that I just don't know why.

As you know soon High School will be over and I'll move to Mexico city to start Uni but I just don't know why am I feeling so down today... I just don'w know if the changes that are about to come will be good or if I'll do well in this new stage of my life that's about to come. I'm really desperate and sad and sometimes I just wish I could bedad 'cos I'm just feeling scared of life.. not achieving my main goal or not being able to find someone 'cos I'm too weird.

I just feel my whole world is heavier than me and as if I couldn't handle it.

So..

It's all over now, finally I won't go to the same school where I had studied for all my life (16 years)... it's quite sad but in fact I feel happy about it 'cos for the first time I'll know how does it feel to get to know new people, I'll even move to Mexico city!
I still need to rpesent 6 exams, then we'll have a party at a pub on the 19th, after that a school cereomony on the 20th followed by our graduation party on the 21st and finally.. I won't ever see my mates again besides one who's also going to study Architecture in the same Uni.. the only "funny" thing about this is that about 4 weeks ago I discovered this guy is gay too.. I saw some messages he left on the public messages box of another boy (I guess he thought it was a private messaging service but it's not :P) but well I haven't told him I'm gay too, I think he suspects it but well I'm not prepared to share it with him 'cos he's a bit girly and I dunno we just don't have THAT much in common however we're friends and everything, I guess one of us will say it when the right time comes.

So as I said my exams start on Monday so I'll be really busy like for a week and I might not be online that much but well I hope it all ends soon!

The time is coming

So in 1 week I'll be finishing High School since this is the last week of classes, my exams will start on July 9th and they'll end in about 2 weeks time, as usually I won't be able to carry on with my web life 'cos I'll be studying hard but well I just hope I can close this stage of my life in a good way. Some of my friends are already feeling sentimental about leaving High School especially 'cos, as I always say, most of us have been in the same school for all our lives so it'll be a bit weird to stop it all from one day to another however I don't think it's bad, I feel happy about it 'cos for the first time I'll be able to start a new "life".

However this "new life" won't mean I'll leave my online life haha I still think it'll be hard to meet pop lovers in Uni but well I just expect to find good friends there. Just like someone I met some months ago, Tomazaky hehe he's just an amazing boy with a nice personality, he's taught me good things and I know sometimes I've annoyed him but after all I think he understands me, so that's why he doesn't send me a virus (He's in Portugal so he can't hit me :P) and I'm sure he knows how special he's for me and also he knows how much I appreciate his creations..

As u can see he's able to create really cool pics XD.. you know you rock "garoto" :P