I'm feeling all mixed up

This week was a bit weird for me, on monday I was feeling ok, nothing special about it, however on Tuesday I started to feel really depressed because I noticed that this guy who lives in my house and studies Architecture, Oscar, was well was having fun with other guys and well even though I've made up my mind and I know he's not a potential bf I do feel something for him so I couldn't help feeling sad and jealous but in a good way, to make things even worse one of my new housemates said that I was annoying because of my happiness he said "You're just like a character from Disney's Enchanted movie" and well yeah I know I have a happy personality and I also know some people might find it annoying but I just felt like trash so that day after we had dinner I just decided to go take a shower and go to sleep immediately, I didn't feel like chattin' with all of my housemates 'cos I was feeling miserable, so I went downstairs and started to brush my teeth while I was litening to some sad songs on my iPod, I couldn't help crying 'cos I felt as if I wasn't a human, I even looked at my wrist and imagined this whole shitty suicide panorama. After some minutes I realised Oscar was outise of my bathroom so when I saw him I just pretended nothign was happening and he didn't realise I had been crying and well he was there to tell me about a girl who fancies him and well he said I looked stranged and asked me if everything was ok and I sad "Yes" , I htuoght about talkign with him but this time I decided it would be a better idea to shut up because he's always saying I play the "victim" role.This carried on all the way through Thursday and well that day I helpd a friend whose parents have decided to split up, he felt comfortable talkign about it with me, he even cried and I was glad I could help him so that mde me feel better 'cos I felt happy about helping him.

So it wasn't a nice week at all however I did learn very useful things for life yesterday when I was talking with my dad and my sister, they picked me up, and I'm proud of that 'cos they taught me education always has a limit, and sometimes we get to a poin where we prefer to avoid our opinion so that we don't seem to be rude but that's silly 'cos in the end our personality is always first.

This is me and the girl who fancies my friend, we're in her bedroom lol actually I "like" her 'cos she knows Atomic Kitten, Liberty X, Sugababes, Girls Aloud.. since she studied in Ireland some time ago.

He's another housemate, he's a bit funny and sometimes I suspect he's gay 'cos of his persnality but he has mentioned an ex gf however he likes S Club haha