"Life"
Lately I've been feeling really sad and well things are not getting better to be honest, today I'm feeling worse.. as most of you might know my main goal in life is to move to another country as soon as I finish Uni; doesn't matter if I have to work a lot or anything like that and I'm prepared to do it but the thing is that right now I don't have other motivations in life; if I could die right now I wouldn't care.. my "life" is just annoying and senseless and even though I feel happy with my personality that doesn't matter 'cos I can't do anything about it like sharing it with someone.
Mymain goal is to move so that I can start a new life but well i I could stop living I wouldn't care about my main goal 'cos at least I would stop "living" and however even if I move I'll have to die one day so that's why I wouldn't care if I died today.
As I said before I'll do anything so that I can move in the future but I fear that I might not be able to do this especially 'cos I don't know what to do in order to move and I feel worried about failing ... I dunno maybe I'm just being random or reptitive but it's just that I need to express this :( the only (little) hope I have right now is moving and I really wish I could do it right now but well I still need to wait some years .. that's horrible and I'm tired of being patient and well I could easily kill myself but I just don't have the courage I guess all I can do is cry and hide all this from everyone. I know you might think I'm pathetic but it's just that I'm tired of this.
posted by charles-oi @ Thursday, May 24, 2007
3 Comments:
Don't spend your life wishing for something else - live life for now!
It's far better that way :-P
I know this will sound like an old cliche and it's really not meant to but the age that you're at right now is the most difficult. When I hear people say that they'd like to be 18 again I wonder if they can really remember what it was like or if I had a unique experience in hating it!
Things will get a lot better Charles and probably a lot quicker than you imagine too. When you are feeling this low the situation can only get better so because you're coping now (however hard it is) you inevitably will move on to much better times.
It's also being through really tough times that will help you in the future when you face life's challenges.
It might not seem like it right now but you'll have a big smile on your face one day in the not too distant future!
Take it easy and don't be hard on yourself.
wow thank you, maybe you're right after all
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